christmas dayMERRY CHRISTMAS ALL....
today is Christmas day..can't believe 2011 will end soon..
today is Our Jesus Christ born day..thank you for save our life...
this year I'm celebrate Christmas at my BFF home..u know where..erm..here at Taman Permy Jaya Miri..
first time coming here and celebrate in Iban way..so different with my hometown celebration..but im so glad can celebrate with them..very nice and kind family..it fill like im with my own family here with them..but i miss my family at sabah also..mesti dorang aramaittt tu sdh..hehe..
this year there are so much problem happen to me and my family..i don't know why this happen..what im doing in my pervies life until God give me so many challenges..some time i think better I'm die than life in this world..i want to follow my mom up there..but i try to think +ve..maybe God want be to be strong so He give me so much challenge than i can have some experience from that to make me more mature..so that why I'm still alive now and can write in my blog..
in this Christmas..the person that i really miss so much is my mom..it bean 7 years she left us..n now i can accept the reality..me without my mom in this world..i know she watching me in other world and always pray for me..i love u mummy..i will always remember u and pray for u inside my heart..i will be a gud girl for u..and u will proud of having daughter like me..
to my father..i hope u will change just like old u..i really miss the moment we celebrating Christmas together..and u will hug and kiss us..but now that just happen in a dream..so sad...Dear god..please make my father change her mind and heart..don't let he become like this in anymore..i really miss my old daddy..make he realise that he have 3 daughter and i son that want to be love and want to leave with him..please God please make my hope come true..amen..
ok lh..i fell want to cry already writing this entry...hope next Christmas God will make my hope come true..amen..till then..merry Christmas and have a blessed Christmas...
